"Just before our love got lost you said, "I am as constant as the Northern Star" and I said, "Constantly in darkness, where's that at? If you want me I'll be in the bar." --Joni Mitchell
Where the moment is the only thing that is sure, and that depending on sanity, perception and a host of other things, I can see why people long for constancy. On one hand, there is an ennui to the idea of a never-changing-what-have-you. But on the other hand, the security is like concrete beneath feet.
I'll admit it. I am afraid of change. I am afraid that people who are around now won't be tomorrow, or in 10 years. I can see why people like the idea of God, so that no matter what changes, at least that will be constant and never changing. In a world where everything is temporary, having something that's not temporary would feel a little like concrete (especially when that something comes with the promise of eventually making things permanent).
But God, to me, is in the abstract, and doesn't make constant my day to day. And any constancy I attribute to him at this point is as good as imagined, since the promised constancy seems always in the future. Sure I can convince myself that it's now, that amid losses and findings there is a constant intelligence ever moving things toward a peaceful ending (or beginning). And as usual, I still hope that is the case. But for now, I just have to make the best decisions I can, knowing that losses will still come, and some will break my heart.
Aside from everything else, I never took you as the type to be afraid of change. 
